Made to Crave On-line Bible Study

I never imagined that I would become someone who struggled with her weight.  When I was a teenager, I could eat anything and everything that I wanted and never gain a pound.  I would look at my mother in her double-digit sizes and think to myself, “I will never wear those.” (Sorry, mom.)

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When I competed in the Miss Maryland America Pageant, I won the Preliminary Swimsuit Competition five times.  That is something that no one else has ever done before or since.  And to be honest, while I worked out on a regular basis, I never had to do anything drastic to get my body into the shape that it was.  I felt sorry for the girls who had trouble losing weight, but had no empathy for them.

Fast forward three babies in four years later and all of that has changed.  My youngest is four years old now, so I can’t even call this baby weight anymore.  Since the birth of my first daughter I have started numerous diets and workout plans.  I would jump in with 150% percent of my being eventually burning out and falling back into old eating habits.

For the past 8 years, I have felt like my size is temporary.  I refrain from buying clothes, because I don’t want them to be too big when I get back to my “real” weight.  I feel guilt when I walk into my closet and am faced with hangers full of beautiful clothes that I can no longer wear.

I have realized that my struggle is not just with over-indulgence and lack of exercise, but it is also with deprivation and a strict workout routine.  My thinking is very all or nothing causing me to yo-yo between making an idol of food and making an idol of weight loss.

I actually received my copy of Made to Crave right when it first came out several years ago at the Proverbs 31 Ministries She Speaks Conference.  I even shared my struggles with Lysa when she signed my book.  I can remember her sharing with me that it wasn’t about the number on the scale moving in one direction or another, it was about coming to peace with my body.  I thought that I understood at the time, but I didn’t.

And so the book sat on my shelf while I continued to try to do things on my own.  Every so often I would walk by it and hear a little whisper saying, “read it.”  To which I would respond, “I don’t need to read that, I can do this on my own.”

After gaining ten pounds over the holidays, I have finally come to a place where I am ready to admit that I cannot do this on my own.  I need the Lord’s help to completely reprogram the way that I look at food, exercise and my weight.

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That is why I decided to sign-up for the FREE Made to Crave On-line Bible Study through Proverbs 31 Ministries.  It is my prayer that by going through this study with a community of like-minded people, I will finally overcome my food and body image issues.  If you deal with the same struggle, I would love to have you join me.  To sign-up click the On-Line Bible Study button on the right-hand side of this page.

I would love to hear from you.  If you can relate to what I shared and/or you decided to join me in this study please leave a comment below so that I can be praying for you.  If you would like to follow my journey, you can subscribe to my blog through the box in the upper right-hand corner.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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  • Amy S

    Oh … I am so with you! I long for the days when I thought 160 lbs was OVERWEIGHT! lol … I too went up over the holidays… I am so excited … to start this this weekend! 😀 along with my weight watchers!

    • hablondi

      My mother swears by Weight Watchers! Praying that it will be a tool that you can use to meet your goal.

  • rebeccajo

    I think this book, EVERY woman can relate to in some sort of way…. we have such issues with our appearance. I’m looking forward to seeing how God speaks to our hearts!

    • hablondi

      I agree with you 100%. I think this book speaks to just about anything that we make more important that God.

  • https://www.facebook.com/WanderingThroughTheBible Stefanie Hutcheson

    I am so glad to be going on this journey with you!

    • hablondi

      Glad you are here, as well!

  • Shantay

    Thank you for sharing. I was small before having children, too. I can totally relate to your story… well except for the winning (5 times!!!) in a swim suit!!! pageant. Let’s rock the OBS!

    • hablondi

      It’s the kids that get us every time, isn’t? Excited to be doing this together.

  • http://www.razella.com/ RaZella

    Hi, I’m dropping in from the BlogHop. I too have probably lost and gained the same 20 pounds over the last few years, and remember in my younger years being able to eat anything I wanted without a worry. I am looking forward to joining you and everyone else in this study, and pray the Lord will use this to help draw us closer to Him and give us each the encouragement and victory we need in our health journeys! Thank you for sharing your story 🙂

    • hablondi

      Thanks for dropping in. I am becoming thankful for the fact that I can no longer eat whatever I want, because it is forcing me to become more dependent on God. Glad to be on this journey with you.

  • Joan Geisler

    Any lasting change can only begin and end with God. We must first renew our minds like Romans 12:1-2 tells us in order to have any lasting change. God tells us our bodies are “temples of the Holy Spirit” Let’s ask ourselves if what is on our fork is going to bring glory to that temple or continue to destroy it? I received The Daniel Plan book for Christmas. IT is totally awesome.

    • hablondi

      Joan, your words are so true. I have heard of the Daniel Plan. I will definitely check it out.

  • http://shellyafaust.com/ Shelly Faust

    Hi Heather! So excited that you are joining us for Made to Crave! Oh how I remember the days of not having to worry about what I ate or how many calories I burned. Although I never won a swimsuit contest (you go girl!!), I can definitely relate. I just read the comment you mentioned from Lysa about letting our goal be not just a number on the scale but peace no matter what. I know that as we change our focus to Him and His Word on our journey to getting healthier we will reap the benefits in every area (spiritually, physically, emotionally). Hugs!~Shelly

    • hablondi

      Hi Shelly! Glad you stopped by! So excited to see you as part of the P31 OBS team.

  • Erika @ This Journey Called My

    Visiting from the Blog Hop…. Can’t wait to begin this journey together! Please feel free to visit me on my (new) blog: http://thisjourneyofme.blogspot.com

    • hablondi

      Looking forward to doing this with you, as well.

  • Stacy

    My story is very similar to yours! I have had the book for 3 years and only read half. I then go pregnant with my 2nd baby and ENJOYED it. 😉 I look forward to reclaiming a comfort in knowing I’m happy and healthy. Good luck to you too!

    • hablondi

      I can’t believe I let the book just sit on my shelf for so long. I have learned so much already!

  • Mya

    I appreciate your honesty. I think for all of us who struggle with our weight, it is very difficult to admit that we can’t handle something and need help. For me, there was and is a desperate desire to figure out what is causing me to continue to treat my body like this. I am going to be delivered from past hurts, painful acts that happened to me in my childhood and walk in freedom. I no longer desire to sing or talk about being ‘free’, I actually want it to be part of who I am, effortlessly.
    Thank you again for your honesty and I’m looking forward to us all exceeding our goals TOGETHER!
    – Mya

    • http://www.heatherablondi.com Heather Ablondi

      You are so inspiring! I love what you said about being free. What a great way to put it. I too desire it to be part of who I am. Excited to go on this journey with you.

  • Cheryl

    Heather, I can relate 100% with your struggles. Since my youngest was born, I am still carrying the baby weight, plus some, and she is almost 19. I really do want to lose the weight, get healthy from the inside out as I want to feel good about myself and not just go by a # on the scale. My husband however is all about how I look, wanting me to get back to what I was when we first met and got married. He is not a believer so this is an uphill battle with him. Looking forward to the MTC online bible study and following your blog.